lixie’s dinner

“Smile when it hurts most.” That’s a quote from…I don’t know, but I think we all need to learn from it, but you may disagree.

April has lasted for ten days and I haven’t written anything. I have done a lot of thinking, but I do not want to be preoccupied with spending one or two hours just to write a note. It is all because of my mood swing that has…I’d rather not go on.

I have been wondering, if it is spring already. The weather has been “nice” and “beautiful,” the sunshine, the cloudless sky, the chirping birds and the blooming flowers. Everything seems to be full optimism and lively, but that’s not always the case, if you know what I mean.

When it comes to the weather, I am a little peculiar. I cannot stand sunshine, although I am from a country with a lot of it. I always get insulted, when I tell people about it, but who cares? People can say whatever. It is not like I am going to die if you insult me, but please don’t do that. It is not respectful and not nice. Besides, that’s not what an educated person does.

Believe me, a lot of people claim to be educated and yet they like to insult other people. They say they are peaceful person, but they are actually the biggest liar you’ve ever met in your life. I am always the victim, because I “stand out” the most among you. Yes, it is because I am small and am sometimes “naive” about stuff, but why can’t people try to imagine putting themselves in my shoes once in a while? Being insulted is not pleasant and it hurts my feeling. I am oppressed, OK? But what can I do?

Now, the quote says, “Smile when it hurts most,” and I honestly want to practice that, but I have had enough of the so called “civilized” society. A lot of the people in the society have a stupid and DISGUSTING mindset.

I was hurt last night, because there were a number of “educated” people who insulted me because I am small. One of them even said, “Hi, dwarf!” Is it nice to say that to a stranger? Yes, they are bigger than I am, but, honestly, their brain is small. Well, I’m NOT sorry to say this, they DON’T have a brain at all. They are stupid, ignorant and uneducated, period.

I am sorry that I become a burden to them, but that’s not what civilized people do. THAT IS A SICK, LOATHSOME AND COLONIAL THOUGHT!

SICK @#$! #@!$% %#@!$ @!#$%! DISGUSTING!!! (Spit)

Side note: If their brain, IF they HAVE a brain, were a computer, I would pwn* it and trash it with gazillions of useless stuff. The worst part would be viruses and worms that could turn them into a zombie. I will program a BAD repetitive task with an INFINITE loop. If the loop is stopped, they will completely erase their own memory and, in the end, they will self destruct, muahahahahaha!!!

*pwn, also “own.” Past tense, “pawned,” “owned.” Origin, “own,” which implies some dominance over something or someone. When “own” and “owned” became “pwn,” “pwned” and “pwnage,” the words came to mean the same thing; dominance and superiority. The new word “pawn” is very simmilar in the sense; its plain definition is to belittle or reduce someone or something to pawn status, essentially, “owning” them. (Urban Dictionary dot Com)